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Quarantine 2020

I have not blogged since 2014. It is now 2020 and the worst year this country has seen in a long time. We are quarantined. We are supposed to stay home. Oh and wash our hands. For it is the year of COVID-19 the Coronavirus. It's everywhere. On the news, on Facebook, in conversations. I have decided to put down on "paper" exactly what I am going through.

I have worked since I was 16 accept for the time I took to have my babies. 6 weeks and I was back at work. So I have been working a long time. Now I am at home, not working. Well, not working for an employer.

I want to tell my story. I want to talk about my anxiety. I want to tell you what I do all day and how I feel. I know there are people out there that have it worse than me. The problems is I can't see it. I can't feel it. I only know what is happening in my bubble.

Today I worry about my husband, Jim. He is a clerk at the Post Office. He works at the counter. He is truly on the front lines. I have visited him at work a couple of times. Every time I have there were very angry people there. I got yelled at for not standing on the X. I got yelled at for entering the lobby when there were already 2 people there. I worry that he will get the virus. And he has a DNR.

Is anyone listening?

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